finally, a day where I can feel the sun on my skin
like a trail of kisses
the breeze in the air
much like a lover tracing my fingers with theirs, intertwining
my shoulders feel weightless
i’ve been so patient
finally, a day where i can walk past you and not panic
not flashback to who you were
fear who you have become
but hold my head high
wave hello to the friend walking in front of you
not scared of whether or not you’ll judge me for it
i’m finally able to genuinely smile
able to love myself
to feel my heart beat again and not miss your rhythm
i’m beaming as the sun seams
i feel refreshed, relaxed, and even pure
as though every tear and ache has been drained
i’m promising my soul to happiness,
putting myself first,
to the yellow butterflies fluttering through the air,
not the butterflies of someone’s words or touch
i’m promising my soul to myself,
not a boy
i’m a brand new me
and i love me