Every time you’ve lied to me, you’ve done it because I let you
Because I always know when you’re embellishing your thoughts or sparing my feelings and being untruthful
I knew
When you told me that you weren’t like her
That you wouldn’t hurt me
That you’d be here
That you wanted to protect my heart and shower me with kisses and shower with me and hold me until it didn’t hurt anymore
That I was safe with you
I knew
When you said that it was purely physical with her
That it was such a small thing
That you were hung up on me
I knew
And I let it happen
Because being alone
Being without you
Was so much worse than the tidal wave of pain I knew would come after taking your lies until you got tired and until I got comfortable with how so so pretty they were
I knew that it would all come crashing down
And yet I was still one breath from telling you I loved you