Lying here, I close my eyes
I attempt to relax; to let go,
But this is near impossible,
I cant get you out my mind
Around you I'm vulnerable,
When I'm not with you
My life seems meaningless,
Why did this happen to me?
You're supposed to be just a friend,
But being so close to you took it's toll,
You're so beautiful; every ounce of you,
I want you for me; I want to make you mine,
But you say you're not attracted to me
What ever did I do to deserve this?
The day I met you has become
Both a marvelous blessing
And a torturous curse,
My heart is in your hands
And you play with it dangerously,
Teasing me with your lips
I'm blinded by your curves,
I'm afraid I can't hold back if you get too close
But these thoughts are killing me,
I can't take this anymore
I wish I'd never met you
I wish you weren't so shallow,
What more could you want from a man?
I've shown you the bright side of life,
We get along so well,
But you want what you want
And no one will sway you from this,
I tried, I really did; uselessly,
Now I have to get you out of my mind
Not an easy task; but I have to follow through,
When I come out of this; I will be stronger
I'll lock away my heart from getting hurt,
It's better we go our separate ways
Lest I break down again, defenseless in your beauty...
© okpoet