Jan 2019
You were hurting my heart,
deepening a hole,
while I was hurting your heart,
creating a hole.
They were right from the start:
We were toxic.
My love extends so far;
we hit the limit.
I left you alone now;
cried it out.
I had to break down,
to know how to build up.
You are amazing,
You're awful.
You are beastly,
You are beautiful.
No more will you hurt me,
nor blacken my injured heart.
No more will I hurt you,
nor injure your blackened heart.
From this moment onward,
I am immaculate,
a god among men.
deepening a hole,
while I was hurting your heart,
creating a hole.
They were right from the start:
We were toxic.
My love extends so far;
we hit the limit.
I left you alone now;
cried it out.
I had to break down,
to know how to build up.
You are amazing,
You're awful.
You are beastly,
You are beautiful.
No more will you hurt me,
nor blacken my injured heart.
No more will I hurt you,
nor injure your blackened heart.
From this moment onward,
I am immaculate,
a god among men.
I wrote this September 14th, 2018. I had just experienced a mental breakdown after the break up. Nearly killing my soul completely. This amazing person I lost was also my secret Fiancé. He proposed but we didn't want to tell anybody until we felt it right. On my way out of my mental chaos, I had an overflow of excessive confidence that warped my views on what happened/ Crazy love end in crazy ways. My love for him was so deeply intense that I lost my mind almost completely. Thus "I AM IMMACULATE" was born.
