so i have chosen to take another path one that not many others would travel with me and i don't know how it's gonna turn out but for right now it seems like the right choice. and i know it's gonna help me find something that i have been looking for for a while now but i have never been able to find because of the road that i have used. so i have chosen now to change. i may become better, maybe worse but i cannot say yet. i just know that i will be different then than i am now. and it's gonna be one heck of a ride.