Painful memories buried within
Replaying in the shadows of my mind
Wonder if I will ever begin
To understand why I got left behind
Searched for answers in vain
Looked for something to hide the shame
I surrendered to the pain
One shot and I was never the same
Beautiful became my sadness
At just the thought of the needles *****
Trapped in a warped sense of madness
I became all kinds of sick
In a nightmare I became lost
Submerged in a hopeless reality
I paid the ultimate cost
When I chose drugs over my family
Dreams came crashing to the ground
Without my family I lost all hope
So it was operation **** to be found
Blissful nothingness was my way to cope
Paranoia? Or is no one to be trusted?
No lessons were ever taught
Until I got busted
Now that's food for thought