Bouncing ideas off me while I'm "asleep", I don't believe you, talk is cheap. Then when you tell me while I'm awake, it's worded differently--sounds fake. I don't understand how you can do this, love two people then tell me you reminisce, then go on planning our possible future, like she doesn't even exist.
I hate feeling like a back-up plan. I'll never feel special to you, but man, it sure would be nice to be loved again.