The blade glistens in the bright moonlight As I sit in my tent in the woods Alone.
Through my boredom a wandering raccoon comes along A desire A thought An urge
I shrug it off for now, tossing the blade from hand to hand The raccoon grows louder Tying me down in my own mind
All that I’m thinking of is the blade, My skin And the crimson red hiding behind It wouldn’t take much to reach it It wants the crimson.
The blade is sharp Waiting Begging The thoughts drown out all common sense
Until the blade is on my wrist Resting Apply some pressure I feel it A tingling through my arm As I drag the blade across my skin Crimson red pouring out The raccoon is euphoric.
The pain overpowers those thoughts Quiets the din of the raccoons But my friend, Pain is only a temporary experience. They come back. Wild raccoons given a taste of power Coming back.
They louden I give in They quiet down Rinse Repeat.
Parallel lines down my left arm Out of room Try my other arm The blade’s easy to hold in my numb left arm As I mirror the cuts over to the right
I’ve given it all that I could. Yet it comes back again It wants more It wants more
I give it more They're are satisfied for now Toss on a long-sleeved shirt Long jeans. Nobody’ll be able to tell Of the things that I’ve done for a raccoon