The second time around I played a song that made me feel everything As I was already, my mind drenched in the soot Of things I'll never really understand But seeing it from a distance Just like I did me during that time Just like I did and had to To sustain our love.
I compared what we had To me riding a pony Until I had to sling myself off.
I tried it on I donned the sweater Until it frayed and split into pieces All while I was wearing it But wow, I wore the **** out of that sweater.
I've been trying to discover What it is about you that will make me feel at peace But no amount of imagining Or trying to summon you into speaking Truth, love, peace Desire even Will ease it Or make it happen.
I think it's all shown me that I'm a lot more open Than I think I knew And after a winter of experimenting in a major way I think I felt capable to take it on But everything was covered in dust and gruel Everything was already so distraught Lonesome And I embarked into it with you Because you made me think it might be worth my while.
Maybe it was. I'm not sure why or why not yet What I built with you felt like knocking down walls But with the tumble Was chaos And a massive lack of reassurance Because the power of the tumble Still meant that it all had to be rebuilt.
So I guess that's where it all really leads to now.
Nothing could be rebuilt Created stronger, more able You cannot love a man Who has the intention not to love.
And that's the phrase I hope is tattooed to the crevices of your hand Into your eyelids Into the sides of your skull So that any other young girl May heed that warning.
You said you have much self discovery to do I am a prized weapon A prized reward A legend among women A goddess among the divine A queen on a throne And I don't doubt you didn't know it
But you crumbled and toppled down Much like the walls Much like the foundation
So my court, we left the abandoned rubble
And now we are building our castle Into the sky Onto the sturdy earth In the coming water And in the licking and welcoming Flames of fire.