It may sound harsh But it’s true. I can’t divorce the word “Disappointing” Anytime I hear your name.
When my phone t9’s what I really want to say into your name It’s like a slap in the face And I can still feel the sting hours later.
When I run into you On the streets I wish It would be like how I imagine it: Where the empowered heroine (that’s me) Gives a look so piercing It makes him shiver And wallow in rebuke and despair.
Instead I freeze up Deer in headlights Shocked and bewildered and delighted and horrified All at the same time.
After all the **** you put me through You can still do that to me. It’s like magnetism or The Force Or magical forces unexplained And I stumble awkwardly To get away.
My life is not a movie And I am no heroine. But at least my name Isn’t synonymous with disappointment.