. from personal experience? voluntary celibacy is becoming the new taboo, of the old taboo that was homosexuality... what with the homosexual **** coming full swing... evidently i'm not wearing a dog-collar or a monk's attire... voluntary celibacy is the new taboo that was the old taboo of homosexuality... from personal experience... so... blah; what? *******? on the toilet (it was never about scented candles) it's as easy as one (taking a ****), two (taking a ****), three (*******), four (massaging the prostate by sitting for a prolonged time on the throne of thrones)... i thought ******* wasn't a problem, as best exemplified in the film the shape of water by a woman, in a bath?
the sort of homosexuality you'd associate with Frank O'Hara, and the current homosexuality of, today?
the revision of the banality of carnal festivity...
well... for one: a complete lack of decorum... and how prior to homosexuals prized decorum above all else...
me in my farce of heterosexuality - a voluntary celibacy... with the odd occassion of a *******'s hour... no... i can't say i was born with an inherent drive: derived from an opposite...
with the original "act" being given full permission... evidently the labor of gravitating toward the mundane: instituionalized legality of... coupling...
on the reverse? a need to push the **** further, into transgender movements... because the reins have been slacked, the **** needs to continue...
but upon reading some of Frank O'Hara... Spicer... whoever... what decorum... the **** needs to pulverize forward: march...
since now comes the fear of the mundane, the aura of what was once prohibited, but also: by prohibition carved out from the taboo populace the sieve of the most adequate rhetoricians...
the continued homosexual **** carnival needs to continue: because it fears having to settled for the mundane and thumb of acceptance...
i base this on: so the thrill of being "found out" is gone, as is the thrill and the hard-on? so now a hard-on from shock-awe?!
it's not like current homosexuality is going to fork-out something that might transcend the ongoing ****...
but when homosexuality could identify itself with the sort of esteem no other sexuality could fathom... it could be guided and be the perfected example of: the composed aesthetic of the urban specimen...
the thrill of the taboo fizzled out... oh my my... what are the homosexuals to do? push on with the ****... because... settling on the mundane grievances of opposites of a man & a woman... that encompass the entire study life within the confines of the canvas of time are...
"there", but not there... or rather: the lost decorum of the ones now so blatantly generic...
the old homosexual guard is there, still in full splendor, as is the new heterosexual "guard" - of the voluntarily celibate... because: i forgot to have the sort of competitive ambition of a *****... i still get to **** the ****: death... does it matter if i am to compete, or not compete?