I've been taking calls
Giving myself the solace I need

It's that winter time feeling here
Where it feels better to stay at home
I'd probably be kicking the pavement
I'd probably be doing a lot of things.

I've been through so much
My tattoos and growing flame hair
We've over come
We dance among the wild
We don't need or have to have
Any old thing.

I've gone through the fire and the fury
I've mapped out loosely
How to go, get away
I've accepted within myself
That I can only swim so much further here.

In the deep end with you
We were tied together with a piece of rope
Until within the fleet of the water
You pulled out the sharpest object you could
Hustle, muscle
And released me
Watching me sink
You thought that was it
I'd be going deep down
Into the well with the water
Where I'd become one with the mermaids.

I think and I know that you are wrong
You've got shock and surprise written all over you
As I swam right back up to the top
With some brave strokes
And went my own way.

I guess I sorta knew it would come to this
We couldn't both keep floating
And I don't doubt that in a moments time
You'll look back on this
And wonder where you could have no erred.

It was such a thrill
To be your little doll
It always is.
It was a delight
To let you love me the way you could
Even though a wretched doubt
Took over your soul
And invited itself
And ultimately
Wanted to watch me drown.

I don't believe in that thing
That took over you
But I'm aware of it now
And I've accepted I've done all I could do
Feeling as though I'm a better swimmer
Without the weight of your fears
Your insecurities
Your infuriating sensibilities.

You said you didn't love me back
I'll forever remember that
It's burned into the back of my mind
As you, join the ranks
Of the ones who done me wrong.

I'm a southern sweet pea
A mighty monsoon
A mermaid with no tail

But I don't gotta show you those things
I don't gotta make you love those things
I never needed anything from you.
Not really.

So I swim on now
Watching you float on your own
In the water where I thought there was little to drink
But still kept drinking
Until it just wasn't worth

My beauty
My time
Or my mind.

What else is there to do?