I couldn't really leave my house I was afraid of what it might mean If I got your call And wasn't in the safety of my home Near sage, near ****, near crystals Near wine.
The silence feels deafening but somewhat necessary.
I'm not sure where your head is at You had this look of lightness in your eyes before you walked out Like you better understood me, this. I hope that stays.
You at first Were so perplexed that I don't need or have to have The kind of future with you That you think I'm supposed to want You kept saying things like I'm not the one for you You deserve so much I don't want to lose you
I felt like a snake in moments Tripping and hissing and slithering around Today I just felt so tired So tired and battling my own sense of inner peace.
The silence continues And though all I want is for the silence to end I feel the same way about it that I do us I've put up the fight that I could.
You peeked and looked at me one last little time before you went You reassured me it was going to be okay Watching you leave.
At one point you said to me Standing at the other end of my apartment Like we have a couple times before You said After looking down for a long, long time "Trying to find the words.."
And I said Sometimes there are none.
It's been a real trip with you Alex You haven't made any of this easy But nonetheless It brought me great joy To love you in moments To let you love me in moments.
All I wanted was to experience pleasure So jump in If you can swim.