You grew up thinking losing someone ends with goodbye
Have you ever said goodbye to someone you loved?
Because that’s when losing them starts

you lose them everytime you close your eyes and picture them
their hands on all the right places on your skin
through your hair touching your face

You lose them all over again when you hear their name,
voice or favorite song
Or any song that reminds you of them
You lose them everytime you pass the street you used to walk through daily to the bus station
You lose them every night you can’t sleep,
knowing there’s someone like them out there, alive
You lose them whenever you turn the lights on and they’re not next to you in bed
You lose them when your bed sheets don’t smell like them
and their hair isn’t all over the place  anymore

If you really think goodbye is loss
You must have never said it to someone you loved