I keep thinking about all the times I’ve cried wanting to die.  Know there is something wrong deep down inside.   I’m trying to hide it from you.    Don’t want you to feel blue you did the best you could.  

I keep thinking about all the times I’ve cried wanting to die.  I’ve tried to hide all my feelings but they still manage to get out.  I’m told it’s a gift.   But it feels like a curse.  Why am I burdened inside.  

I keep thinking about all the times ive cried wanting to die.   I know it’s not fair.  It’s not just my life.  It’s the ones I leave behind.  Know that you didn’t do anything wrong.  I love you all.

I keep thinking about all the times you will cry when I go.  It’s not fair.  I know there is something wrong inside.  I try to keep it at bay. It’s a struggle and a shame.  

I keeping thing about all the times I’ve cried wanting to die.  Know that I’m not strong enough to make that choice.  I don’t want you to suffer because I’m sick.

Blessed be