Jan 2019
back in England,
and back to the similitude
of the pardonable
quest for an, i...
standing before a wall
of books,
from the floor to the ceiling,
stacked
like some
reminiscent domino
of events that didn't
take place...
back into an interpolation
of i,
via an interchange
between ? and !
as if existentially
content: as if:
from that persistent
bulwark
whereby there is,
no nothing...
either an expected agitation
or a nightmare,
or an unexpected self-encounter...
born a slab of clay,
died a slab of marble,
yet featureless -
not the repetitive dream
of falling,
not some dream-world
phobia, guaranteed in,
say: claustophobia...
something English,
and therefore eerie...
as if teasing American,
or what is the vein,
not the L.A. artery
cultural export...
the sleepy, hallow and
mistifying north east,
the first indentation...
something...
akin to:
what happens when
you first encounter
Dumas... but not H. P. Lovecraft...
but encounter the latter
in an essay
by michel houellebecq -
**** me... French phonetics
and French linguistics -
either a misnomer
in saying:
no wonder they
are the basin for idea -
or rather... the Freudian
id etc....
the clarity of
phonetic encoding,
to be honest:
i know of one
that is, but buckles under
an orthographic aesthetic,
like a wronged limb,
there...
but... dull...
limp... yet there: provocative...
a return then to: there,
or, rather: "there"...
a month sober,
first night drinking
and one expects to unfold
a month's worth
of a Libra imbalance,
i.e.:
write as much as you read,
or...
read as much as you write:
never write less than
you read,
never read less than you
write...
apparently i read
more than i was supposed
to write...
what with the Sveedish
invasion of Poland,
like some... murky rubric
i learned in the Irish
niche of the outer
east London nibbling Essex...
Romans...
Romans...
this diabolical theatre
of agitating poetics
like mantras...
either Jesus with his
bread and wine...
or mystical Eve with
a 2 in 1 combo's worth
of an apple...
mind you, i did notice
the difference between
western and eastern
Europe...
how the night is illuminated...
dimmed sulphur like
emblems of a moth's
delight in:
tip of (the) tongue -
onomatopoeia:
where no noun dare tread...
a month's worth without
a "freedom" of speech
(third person inquisitive
contort):
you mean - diarrhea?
yes - thank you, dear,
whoever, what-
a character assasination
of the narrator...
say...
why am i unable to write
a novel, brimful
with an assortment
of characters?
ah... i remember the basis...
of this: "nuance"...
yes... either a misnomer,
or an ambiguity,
caged in the existentialists'
" ": lacking
the morn upon the 1st of
May's lark...
i wanted to paint,
but... i can't afford to buy either
paint or canvas or brush...
and... i grew out of writing
novels before i even began
writing novels...
i found it hard to translate
a childish game
into a novel, hardy,
adult enterprise...
hence this interrogation...
as a Chinese State policy
child... perhaps a, millennial...
but as an only child...
i prefer to be dubbed...
the third plenum of the 18th
central committee of the chinese
communist party:
of which i am not,
but... eh... what a waste...
i didn't end up writing
novels, because...
i used to play with G.I. Joe...
marionnettes...
how then to translate
marionnettes into adult?
ah...
"eureka"! (mundane tone):
write a novel...
i cut off my hands
and opened my eyes
to the grand lambda...
i found her on a coach trip
to Warsaw...
Λ...
the sensation / awareness...
once i used to smoke marijuana
to entertain
a lost narrative,
a "lost" narrative...
which was cogitans per se
is... with all the annexed ergo
implies: cogito est narratio...
of course... minus
ethics, etc.
which is how i came
across a keyhole,
θought... which became:
φought:
or rather... without a question
of a morose: 'ought -
esse - i.
that same
blatant disembodiment
of the will of man...
Voltaire is good at that...
simpleton,
Zadig...
sure, prior to: Candide...
but in England,
let me assure you:
do you think you'll ever
buy a copy of Voltaire's
principles of Newton's
physics?
not a chance!
perhaps i grew out of
toying with G.I. Joe
marionnettes too late,
perhaps...
hence? no novel...
hence(?) poetry...
sketches...
the consort of thought...
there is no other,
and there is no...
poetry is no art,
there is no ars poetica...
Heidegger appreciates
Hölderlin...
a poem is not a *******
rhyme worth a pence
for a ******* postcard... savvy?!
where philosophy dictates
a wall,
poetry dictates
a brick...
when "things" become
too... inedible...
people start to flirt with
vegetarianism...
but said "things" are: edible...
yet...
poorly manifest
in the dignity they
demand...
say... a hunted boar
is a tad bit higher
in the hierarchy of tiers
when man
compensates
the boar with
a caged chicken...
and what of
cultural Darwinism?
the same... the same unit of man,
as bothered by:
how German and French
existentialism / humanism,
became the Anglo-Zaz
futurism / economics of:
always the pristine
German and Chinese
labor...
i guess some people
have no notion
of either slavery or liberty,
as much: a soul
or boredom...
only the English
brought about a concept
that overpowered a concern
for worth, in ethic
(with a missing S) -
or not...
deutsche? arbeit!
chinesisch? arbeit!
the English? flirt...
flirt with nebuchadnezzar...
and let the jew mystify
everything, pact universal.
my, my disembodiment...
Λ:
no... not V... not 5...
somehow not A either...
two eyes
and a pointer...
no... not the nose...
rather... an imagined horn /
honing device...
as in?
not the automated nature
of the brain,
jellyfish soap opera...
fungus marionnette...
m'ah ******* forehead...
Λ = oculus + fore' 'ed
(Cockney gapoos)
V = oculus + shut mouth
+ wry & wormly numb-tongue
or the Welsh salute at
the French... in loan a broan
post bow set loose...
arrow: pointy thing...
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...................................................
...................................................
...................................................
...................................................
...................................................
...................................................
(which is an authentic pause...
filled with
fiddling with my beard)
like sticking
a stick into a river
and expecting it
to change course...
a wild idea,
but...
some insanities
are adhered to...
Xerxes "thought"
the lashing the sea...
a blind
convent of all
our hearts' content:
life -
or no life:
a bothersome
clause...
an intimidating
yawn...
a bloated
saturation of filth
in a sieve...
with a childish
kaleidoscope of causes...
the: ergo ad continuum
of science...
a *******'s worth
of existential glue.
and back to the similitude
of the pardonable
quest for an, i...
standing before a wall
of books,
from the floor to the ceiling,
stacked
like some
reminiscent domino
of events that didn't
take place...
back into an interpolation
of i,
via an interchange
between ? and !
as if existentially
content: as if:
from that persistent
bulwark
whereby there is,
no nothing...
either an expected agitation
or a nightmare,
or an unexpected self-encounter...
born a slab of clay,
died a slab of marble,
yet featureless -
not the repetitive dream
of falling,
not some dream-world
phobia, guaranteed in,
say: claustophobia...
something English,
and therefore eerie...
as if teasing American,
or what is the vein,
not the L.A. artery
cultural export...
the sleepy, hallow and
mistifying north east,
the first indentation...
something...
akin to:
what happens when
you first encounter
Dumas... but not H. P. Lovecraft...
but encounter the latter
in an essay
by michel houellebecq -
**** me... French phonetics
and French linguistics -
either a misnomer
in saying:
no wonder they
are the basin for idea -
or rather... the Freudian
id etc....
the clarity of
phonetic encoding,
to be honest:
i know of one
that is, but buckles under
an orthographic aesthetic,
like a wronged limb,
there...
but... dull...
limp... yet there: provocative...
a return then to: there,
or, rather: "there"...
a month sober,
first night drinking
and one expects to unfold
a month's worth
of a Libra imbalance,
i.e.:
write as much as you read,
or...
read as much as you write:
never write less than
you read,
never read less than you
write...
apparently i read
more than i was supposed
to write...
what with the Sveedish
invasion of Poland,
like some... murky rubric
i learned in the Irish
niche of the outer
east London nibbling Essex...
Romans...
Romans...
this diabolical theatre
of agitating poetics
like mantras...
either Jesus with his
bread and wine...
or mystical Eve with
a 2 in 1 combo's worth
of an apple...
mind you, i did notice
the difference between
western and eastern
Europe...
how the night is illuminated...
dimmed sulphur like
emblems of a moth's
delight in:
tip of (the) tongue -
onomatopoeia:
where no noun dare tread...
a month's worth without
a "freedom" of speech
(third person inquisitive
contort):
you mean - diarrhea?
yes - thank you, dear,
whoever, what-
a character assasination
of the narrator...
say...
why am i unable to write
a novel, brimful
with an assortment
of characters?
ah... i remember the basis...
of this: "nuance"...
yes... either a misnomer,
or an ambiguity,
caged in the existentialists'
" ": lacking
the morn upon the 1st of
May's lark...
i wanted to paint,
but... i can't afford to buy either
paint or canvas or brush...
and... i grew out of writing
novels before i even began
writing novels...
i found it hard to translate
a childish game
into a novel, hardy,
adult enterprise...
hence this interrogation...
as a Chinese State policy
child... perhaps a, millennial...
but as an only child...
i prefer to be dubbed...
the third plenum of the 18th
central committee of the chinese
communist party:
of which i am not,
but... eh... what a waste...
i didn't end up writing
novels, because...
i used to play with G.I. Joe...
marionnettes...
how then to translate
marionnettes into adult?
ah...
"eureka"! (mundane tone):
write a novel...
i cut off my hands
and opened my eyes
to the grand lambda...
i found her on a coach trip
to Warsaw...
Λ...
the sensation / awareness...
once i used to smoke marijuana
to entertain
a lost narrative,
a "lost" narrative...
which was cogitans per se
is... with all the annexed ergo
implies: cogito est narratio...
of course... minus
ethics, etc.
which is how i came
across a keyhole,
θought... which became:
φought:
or rather... without a question
of a morose: 'ought -
esse - i.
that same
blatant disembodiment
of the will of man...
Voltaire is good at that...
simpleton,
Zadig...
sure, prior to: Candide...
but in England,
let me assure you:
do you think you'll ever
buy a copy of Voltaire's
principles of Newton's
physics?
not a chance!
perhaps i grew out of
toying with G.I. Joe
marionnettes too late,
perhaps...
hence? no novel...
hence(?) poetry...
sketches...
the consort of thought...
there is no other,
and there is no...
poetry is no art,
there is no ars poetica...
Heidegger appreciates
Hölderlin...
a poem is not a *******
rhyme worth a pence
for a ******* postcard... savvy?!
where philosophy dictates
a wall,
poetry dictates
a brick...
when "things" become
too... inedible...
people start to flirt with
vegetarianism...
but said "things" are: edible...
yet...
poorly manifest
in the dignity they
demand...
say... a hunted boar
is a tad bit higher
in the hierarchy of tiers
when man
compensates
the boar with
a caged chicken...
and what of
cultural Darwinism?
the same... the same unit of man,
as bothered by:
how German and French
existentialism / humanism,
became the Anglo-Zaz
futurism / economics of:
always the pristine
German and Chinese
labor...
i guess some people
have no notion
of either slavery or liberty,
as much: a soul
or boredom...
only the English
brought about a concept
that overpowered a concern
for worth, in ethic
(with a missing S) -
or not...
deutsche? arbeit!
chinesisch? arbeit!
the English? flirt...
flirt with nebuchadnezzar...
and let the jew mystify
everything, pact universal.
my, my disembodiment...
Λ:
no... not V... not 5...
somehow not A either...
two eyes
and a pointer...
no... not the nose...
rather... an imagined horn /
honing device...
as in?
not the automated nature
of the brain,
jellyfish soap opera...
fungus marionnette...
m'ah ******* forehead...
Λ = oculus + fore' 'ed
(Cockney gapoos)
V = oculus + shut mouth
+ wry & wormly numb-tongue
or the Welsh salute at
the French... in loan a broan
post bow set loose...
arrow: pointy thing...
...................................................
...................................................
...................................................
...................................................
...................................................
...................................................
...................................................
...................................................
(which is an authentic pause...
filled with
fiddling with my beard)
like sticking
a stick into a river
and expecting it
to change course...
a wild idea,
but...
some insanities
are adhered to...
Xerxes "thought"
the lashing the sea...
a blind
convent of all
our hearts' content:
life -
or no life:
a bothersome
clause...
an intimidating
yawn...
a bloated
saturation of filth
in a sieve...
with a childish
kaleidoscope of causes...
the: ergo ad continuum
of science...
a *******'s worth
of existential glue.
