I’m far from a convivial thought Separated by a thin knife Who would have thought I ****** you tonight? I poured a cup of red wine You’re blood is all around me Here’s a toast For which I have not to long I’m contented to your smile on my wall With your eye ***** nailed to wall Hey at least you can see around me It’s funny I can almost hear you calling me. You failed to keep your voice shut And I have a love emotion For sticks and stabs Mother, what can I do? Shut up! No more can be said. I proceed to place her hand on my hand. I started to peel the ends of her finger tips Then I started to pin her down like a butterfly with its wings torn from it. It’s hard to make out if I saw a tear drop Or another blood drop. All I can see is a hollow face With a hollow emotion With a hollow glare. Hey at least smile As I open her smile widely. I fear she will escape! I have nailed her down to the ground Where everyone can see I began to ask my people to begin painting, but with no response in return I’m out of various colors as I told the empty seat. I only have one red color. I’m out of paint brushes, But I have only her bones and hair Use them. It’s night time! I always wonder what was in you head. I began to cut a thin strip of her head as I began to stitch it on my forehead. A jaunt adventure to inside your head shall give me more ideas. I see a skeleton grave I’m aware that you’re looking at me And I shall bring you back I wanted to abate your body to save time. Oh well…I’ll just take to soul For which is true beauty As I return to my room I can still see you’re in the same position from the night I left you. I see that the red has gone away And I believe it’s time to play with the clay. I dislike how you were standing. I believe if I ripped your arms so You’d not try to escape. I’ll blindfold you so you won’t endure my cold bidding of creation. I must say you look like that justice statue. There’s no crime here! I shall not pay for Justice! Art is what I’m trying to create. My ambivalence to love you, you my dear was hard because I hated that you were my art I regret cutting your face, but it’s too late. OH GOD! All I can see is disgusting carrion! WHERE IS THE BEAUTY IN THIS? I THROUGH MY ARMS AROUND HER TALK TO ME **** IT! WHAT AM I DOING WRONG I'M FINALLY FAILING AT MY WORK SPEAK I COMMAND YOU!! DO NOT HIDE ANYTHING FROM ME I BEGAN CUT HER DOWN CUTTING HER BIT BY BIT STICHING AND REATACHING HER CHOPPING HER UP REMOVING PARTS FROM HER. AHHH! MY MASTER PIECE IS RUIN!! I GRAB HER BODY FOR WHICH IT USELESS NOW. As I through her aside I begin to stare at the moon And wonder where did I go wrong? Then I spotted the light of the moon Shinnying down on my creation. A tear drop finally fell upon me. All I had to do was just stare at her Admire her Endure her beauty Bath in it And appreciate it Such a simple thing was suppose to be done Beauty is something simple Did not require dismembering her. At last I demonstrated aesthetic values of beauty.
This is one of my earlier poems.... I was 16 or 17 when I wrote this :) enjoy