I'm scared.
I want to jump head first.
But would you jump,
If you knew it would hurt
When you hit the ground?

When I'm with you ,
It feels like I'm flying
In the clouds.

But soon blue skies turn dark,
My eyes close
And I'm spirally towards the ground.

I want this , us , so much,
But how can I start something
That I know will end badly?