Why the hell am I still alive? If you had to ask me? I'd say I'm not suicidal. Ijustthinkmostwouldbebetterwithoutme I'm sad. I just guess that I'm around because I can't leave yet. I promised you. I'm clean, haven't cut for months. I'm sad. I feel lonely. I'm sad. Can'tcry I'm sad, and I miss you. Can'tcry I've got dreams to chase. Can'tcry I wish I could hold you; so my world could slow because I feel like it's spinning out of control.