Lance

i wish it was different
i wish i said hi
i wish the last words that belonged to you weren’t goodbye

i wish i was that bullet
or a child in a swing
we could laugh and talk
broken rocks and senses of belonging

they gave you a poster
you didn’t give us a sign
and now the school
lives a ******* lie
cause people used that day
the sixteenth of may
looked past eyes
with only a sigh
at least you got to skip that math test right

now i say was
instead of is
i wish you were still here
that day im sad it’s his
they say he was
instead of is
but
that’s because
that’s just how it is now
we hope you wear
an angels crown
fixed your body
a frown upside down
is instead of was
he is so beautiful
he was so sad
he is so funny
he had problems with his dad
he was is instead of was
he is dead
but

some of us did cry
wanting to love and love and
couldn’t tell ourselves
why
you died
why did you die why didn’t you
just give it one more try

to donate anything you can
don’t bottle your emotions that’s not healthy
coping skills are important
that we realize it’s not our fault
tell a friend if you’re feeling sad
i know someone who couldn’t
tell a friend if you’re feeling
tell a friend if you’re
sad down
tell a friend if
he had just said that he wasn’t okay
hey are you gonna make it though the day
tell a friend
a bold faced lie
tell a
family member
don’t spend the day inside
tell someone if you think you should
tell
me
don’t be someone i knew who couldn’t