pulling the most extremist parts of me
to the surface for personal use
I'll shake, I'll force a frown
but being under this control
tends to take a toll
on all the worst ideas I hold dear
I'm sick of this factory after 17 years

get high with me, you can boast
about how experienced you are when compared
to a little Catholic girl like me.

**** all the poems about feelings
waste away in your own delusion
and get into fights for the thrill of it.

and if by some strange blessing
your cigarette is too stubborn to light
toss that ***** aside, and slip
through the brilliance of jungle rainbows
and sleep in the hollows

presented through a dream.