Jan 2019
They say I care too much and I’m far too nice
And yes this has got me hurt once or twice
But that still doesn’t mean that it’s such a bad thing
The people who quote line one, don’t see the tears they bring
I will try and try to do everything right
And it’s even okay if I cry sometimes at night
It’s all for a cause to help whoever needs
So I’ll put everything into doing good deeds
Who would I be if I didn’t even care?
At least people know that I’ll always be there
You know everyday I sit and overthink
About what others think of me, sometimes I forget to blink
So sometimes I break and I lose my mind
Because you won’t stop telling me I’m too ******* kind
There should be no ‘too’ about this
So I care about the feelings of hers or his
Like them I’m so tired and I hold all this in
Then sometimes I have this fear that I’m not destined to win
To win to my mind, to win against the pain
When I’m fighting my battles I’m made to feel ashamed
Yes, I care what you think of me
How could I not when you don’t allow me to be
Be myself and all of my flaws
Little do you know everyday is a war
Between my head and my heart between my light and my dark.
So I will not be named as being too ******* ‘good’
Don’t you think I’d be an ******* if I even could?
-Actually no. I don’t want that
No matter how many people called me ugly or fat
I managed to still like me and love who I am
And I will win this fight, I know that I can
I am stronger than you and I know
And I love myself from my head to my toes
Now I know I’m not funny and I don’t always smile
That’s just me and it has been for a while
But I’ll still be kind, selfless and exactly who I am
I won’t be changing for anyone, no woman or man
So hear me when I say that I am here for all of you
I will listen, love and care for what you do
It’s a tough world out there you know
And nice people are changing after being tossed to and throw
We’re all awkward as hell and feel out of place
So can we start changing things at a quicker ******* pace?
Stop with judgements and just let people be
Last time for those at the back, I will never stop being me.
And yes this has got me hurt once or twice
But that still doesn’t mean that it’s such a bad thing
The people who quote line one, don’t see the tears they bring
I will try and try to do everything right
And it’s even okay if I cry sometimes at night
It’s all for a cause to help whoever needs
So I’ll put everything into doing good deeds
Who would I be if I didn’t even care?
At least people know that I’ll always be there
You know everyday I sit and overthink
About what others think of me, sometimes I forget to blink
So sometimes I break and I lose my mind
Because you won’t stop telling me I’m too ******* kind
There should be no ‘too’ about this
So I care about the feelings of hers or his
Like them I’m so tired and I hold all this in
Then sometimes I have this fear that I’m not destined to win
To win to my mind, to win against the pain
When I’m fighting my battles I’m made to feel ashamed
Yes, I care what you think of me
How could I not when you don’t allow me to be
Be myself and all of my flaws
Little do you know everyday is a war
Between my head and my heart between my light and my dark.
So I will not be named as being too ******* ‘good’
Don’t you think I’d be an ******* if I even could?
-Actually no. I don’t want that
No matter how many people called me ugly or fat
I managed to still like me and love who I am
And I will win this fight, I know that I can
I am stronger than you and I know
And I love myself from my head to my toes
Now I know I’m not funny and I don’t always smile
That’s just me and it has been for a while
But I’ll still be kind, selfless and exactly who I am
I won’t be changing for anyone, no woman or man
So hear me when I say that I am here for all of you
I will listen, love and care for what you do
It’s a tough world out there you know
And nice people are changing after being tossed to and throw
We’re all awkward as hell and feel out of place
So can we start changing things at a quicker ******* pace?
Stop with judgements and just let people be
Last time for those at the back, I will never stop being me.
This is my first ever poem, this is something I feel so passionately about. If you feel like maybe you get walked all over and you need to be harder or tougher, don’t let the world put your walls up, because it actually needs you to stay kind, caring and loving but most of all- strong and true to who you are
