Loosing control

Loosing control
Of everything I have no say
In anything
Everyone
Loosing control
Of myself
I don’t know where to turn
I’m like a ticking bomb
Ready to EXPLODE
Empty inside
Hollow shell
Words in my head
Want out
These controlled feelings
Need a platform
To be able to exhale
This HELL
Breathe in a fresh breeze
Let go of my worries
Depression and disappointments
Loosing control
Of SELF
Unknown to the woman who
Looks back at me in the mirror
Soulless eyes of
A woman I used to know
Coldest heart of
Mt.Everests peak
WAIT
that can’t possibly be me
Cheeks sullen
Eyes with bags under
Teeth yellow
DID I REALLY LET MYSELF GO?
Loosing control