In those moments when I am alone
I want to leave
I want to go
I want to disappear
I want to be gone

In those moments when I feel the pain the most
I want to be here any more
I want to fly away
I want to take the one ticket train
I want to bungee jump with a broken cord

In those moments when I feel left
I want to be in a space ship without oxygen
I want to be examining a volcano without a heat suit
I want to be testing multiple new drugs without knowing the multiplied effects
I want to be driving a speeding car without brakes

In those moments when I drowning in memories
I want to be on that hit list
I want to fall from the stairs
I want to be in that gone wrong armed robbery
I want to be in front of that drunk driver

Faith please hear me
If someone has to die by accident
Please let it be me
For I am done with this pain
Done with this broken world
Done with my life
Done with everything