I want to meet you all over again; like it never happened that way in the first place. Some alternate time and reality, where logic didn't apply, simply because we didn't need its boundaries anymore. Then maybe all those words and smoke, and *** and coke, could have just stayed choked down and I wouldn't have to endure these lonely thing's: loyalty and trustworthiness and camaraderie. Maybe then in that place at that time something great could have happened, and it all would have been left there. Like all those wonderful dreams no one ever remembers having and all those wonderful feelings and sensations no one has felt, and so never will fiend for; but then we wouldn't be here would we? In this great silver lined grave we have dug for ourselves hoping some overlooked imperfection could let us just climb our way right back out into the midst of the crowd and insecurity, or awareness.
I think I wrote this a couple years ago, found it sorting through half burnt old notebooks.