So how will I do it?

How will I continue to share you
How will I mean more to you than you meant for me to.

It took me all day to do the things I was supposed to do
But in time
Eventually
I got them done.

A candle nearby flickers
I smoke into the Chicago night
I didn't leave my house
Other than to grab food
From the delivery man
Because that was what I needed.

You said you had to go distract yourself last night too
That your friends say
That you should give me what I want
Because what you are asking of me
Isn't fair.

It made me wonder
If they asked you who you liked more
Who you loved more
Who you wanted more
Though those kind of thoughts
Don't regularly enter my mind
Until others do.

I'm here still
Staying behind
But at least things are a little different this time.

You asked me if I still didn't really want to talk
As my rage, my pain, my love
I know you see it
You see it in the moments
The air of your body sinks into mine
Or when you kissed me hard
When the clock struck midnight
After my best girlfriend did.

Can't you see me
Can't you see me in front of you
This is all you can give
This is all you have

I either accept it or let go


So I accept it.
Just let her know
She's not the only one that loves you.