...this is the aftermath of death
But I think though I am in the right way

I have been here before!
Fighting a ****** silent battle in my heart
Catatonic and hectic, I was
Confused, utterly lost
I have been before
Trapped and hands tied
Channeling so much ****
Days spent with a twitch
Incapable of hitting the switch!
Days wasted away, days ill
Days too clean
Days without a mouth to speak
too clumsy inside
How to difference which?
What leads to what? What does it all mean?
A prisoner with blurry visions and unclear feels
I have been here before.

But I haven't been before
to the resolution of it all