I don't want this

I don't want to be on a pedestal

I don't want to have opportunity to grow my ego

You see the higher you are the harder you fall

I feel like I keep falling but someone keeps putting me up on a pedestal

I feel like I'm a painting on display

Only someone painted over my cracks and faults

Jesus you are the master painter

I know you don't hide my faults

You restore them

But I don't want to have this delusion of a pedestal

I don't want to think I'm on one

I don't want to stand on one

I never liked being the center of attention

It always made me nervous

But God you called me to speak for you

I don't want to twist your words to make them something they're not

Dear Jesus

You stand tall

Put me in the back where no one can see me