I used to laugh cheerfully with you.....
Buh inside i slowly die....
Yet you who i talk to cant tell
Yet you do not ask
Yet you leave me be 
As i drown in sorrow
Seeking Help from you
The one i lay my hope in
The one i scream out to
The one i seek help from
And yet You dont seem
To notice this voice 
Coming from deep within me
Asking....Begging.....screaming
For you to help me...
But you do not notice it
And sometimes i wonder if 
I should just give up on this life....

And join those who have passed......

Before i go just wanna say
Im sorry that i love you
A lil bit too much
Im sorry that i miss you
Im sorry that i care alot
Im sorry that you couldn't see through my fake smile
Im sorry im the worst boyfriend around these parts
Im sorry that i cry to sleep
when i think about how much i care
Im sorry that i blame God for all this pain that im feeling
Im sorry i couldnt see that i was losing you in the process of loving you....
I love you
And lastly
Im sorry for loving you.....