Time passes and I look away at the life I should of lived
Age is not my friend and will always remind me its too late
I stand in the shadow of others living their dreams
And I hate myself for not trying hard enough
I feel like I'm not good enough
Everytime I try , I feel like I'm wasting precious time
But I also feel alive in this time wasted
I hope someday I could brainwash myself
So I would forget the day I realized I wanted to try
Since that day I've never been more unhappy
I gave up on the idea that you would take care
of this dream
I havent given up on you yet because I'm scared
Im afraid of you