jagged breathes and streaming tears
unsteady hands and scattered scars
you look up into the mirror
you see a reflection you don’t recognise
a stranger looks back at you
you notice the eyes
eyes that used to express so much before
now are dull
it is in that very moment
you know your soul is broken too  
the words are echoing again and again
on a loop
“you hurt him. you did this. you’ve never loved him”
your voice hoarse from fighting
telling the voices to stop
you do love him
you could never hurt him
not intentionally
you do care
the voices get louder
the pain gets harder to deal with
and then you look up once again
a stranger looks back at you
jagged breathes and streaming tears
unsteady hands and scattered scars