this is the last day that I have peace
fake peace
loneliness for me is peace
loneliness can be a mess too
destruction
and paralysis
the 3 am version is my best
I get to be me
with no one around to judge me
or compare me with
the 3 am version is my worst as well
or the best opportunity for the shadow people to appear
to hold me and never let me go
tonight was my last night "alone"