Love is hard to give you...
your constant expecting something from me is
breaking me down....its not far tell all is shattered in me..
Its not far until i finally,
cant take it anymore..
..your standards are over my head...
im always doing something wrong...
consequence is always right in front of me..
one after another you wait until theirs something to accuse me of,
it hurts...
yet i still make it right every time...
but then before i know it, your bickering about something else ive done...
but i hide my tears from you...
and it bottles up..
it gets harder and harder to not blow up in front of you..
but in the mist of your bickering i explode...
i burst into tears knowing i cant hold back and hide my pain from you anymore..
my bottle poors out,
and my anger and recklessness rise to the surface of my tung,
and before im able to stop myself,
i realize youve already walked out...
.....im sorry..im so sorry....
shes out the door...and there i fall my head in my hands...
what have i done...?