having you on my mind is fairly easy
i pretend to make the illusion of your presence, using whatever i have left of you, seem real

having you in my heart, though, is the most difficult part.
the warm radiance of your presence that outshines the sun
is nowhere to be found
leaving my helpless ***** in drunken stupor

"having you on my mind is easy," i said.
but my feeble heart knows that’s a lie.