i hate this
this feeling
the intensity of discovery, confusion, love
the depth of this world

i know that there are times
that i love this
this feeling
the intensity of discovery, confusion, love
the depth of this world

i need somebody 
that fiercely hugs my in- and out-sides
one who helps me
stabilize this being of mine that becomes so intense
with physical, mental, and emotional energy
that she NEEDS reassurance she is not
crazy or alone.
and that she is always loved.

i know it's hard to tell
but i'm not crazy by choice
i would have stopped by now
if i had that control

I'm desperate for somebody who takes control
and gives me peace.

it was almost you.

I guess I'll keep wandering around
asking friends and sometimes strangers "can I help you?" with my lips
and "can you help me?" with my heart.