I feel exposed. my insides are crumpling up like a stricken peace of paper it feels like something rotten is crawling from my bones to the skin. is it my ego deflating, my confidence derailing? No, it's just one of my depressive moods coming up to say hello it wants to chat and is unwilling to go like an unwelcome guest a nuisance! obscuring my attentions view It's begging for notice Does it have something useful to say? Maybe I should listen to the thought that cut so deep I donβt know. It could be just another random swing but i think its more than that Its my brain telling me i need to think to do something different to alter my ways i need to continue evolving changing and morphing adapting the pattern to fit what is needed. ... think too much, think too deep but i want to keep this flame - to hurt me till i'm heeling The old me has to die a new one has to emerge Birth is a painful process as we both should already know.