I miss feeling alive
Everything had a purpose back then

There was music in my heart
I want the melodies back
I want the harmonies inside my head
But alas the record that once played
Each sweet melody is broken
And I am left alone with my thoughts

My thoughts are a prison
Or a labyrinth
Either way I feel like im stuck there
The only time the feeling fades
Is when the sun comes out
And there is work to be done

I force myself out of bed evey morning
And I try to smile and make everyone -happy
But on the inside I’m dying

Im hiding in a facade of happiness
Crying behind a cracked smile
And watching as life passes me by

I miss the smell of dew covered roses
And the warmth of the sun on my face
I miss the quiet moments I used to have
Now thoughts of dark gray cloud any -sunshine

I want to exist
Because existing is way more easy
Than living
Especially when you’re not living your - truth