Nov 2018
When I am sad I like to write how I feel as I'm embarrassed to convey what my heart is telling.
And keeping my emotions inside is the best way not to bother other people's lives.
I've learned it the hard way "to acknowledge your own feelings".
I never let sadness, embarrassment and disappointment be in my life.
As I thought being happy always is something right.
When I suppressed my tears never than I thought it ripped myself apart.
And not allowing to feel what I need to feel.
I never understood that other emotions not only happiness are also valid.
And all of these emotions pouring inside my chest should be known in any possible ways that it's making me human.
I've learned that being strong is not only being still.
It means being able to accept the damages inside you and try to fix and learn how to prevent any further circumstances.
Learning from your mistakes and accepting that after all you're still trying no matter how old you are.
You'll never getting closer to perfection;
And perfection is an image that other people's trying to get.
But end-up deceiving each other's eyes, and ruining each other's soul.
And keeping my emotions inside is the best way not to bother other people's lives.
I've learned it the hard way "to acknowledge your own feelings".
I never let sadness, embarrassment and disappointment be in my life.
As I thought being happy always is something right.
When I suppressed my tears never than I thought it ripped myself apart.
And not allowing to feel what I need to feel.
I never understood that other emotions not only happiness are also valid.
And all of these emotions pouring inside my chest should be known in any possible ways that it's making me human.
I've learned that being strong is not only being still.
It means being able to accept the damages inside you and try to fix and learn how to prevent any further circumstances.
Learning from your mistakes and accepting that after all you're still trying no matter how old you are.
You'll never getting closer to perfection;
And perfection is an image that other people's trying to get.
But end-up deceiving each other's eyes, and ruining each other's soul.
I never written in a while. I must say I am living in a moment for quite sometime, and giving myself some space from any social media. Because I'm giving myself the time to think and re-value who I am. And these are some of my realizations. At the age of 22, I've learned life in different ways. I always thought if I've done this before never it would happen again. But the truth is I don't regret about who I am right now. I feel brave about myself. A poetry for my birthday.
