"We want to support you through this time"
This time is now my life
I will never stop mourning
I can only try to get used to this
Empty heaviness that takes up half my heart
And you will never be able to support me through my whole life
You can't
And I don't want a crutch
But thanks for giving me a thought
For a split second that only appears when you saw me
And when you see me it's all you see
Not how happy I once was
(And am now)
But how miserable I must be
But I really am thankful
You care enough to acknowledge this happened
My own blood just swept it under the carpet
Like they didn't want there perfect friends to see
That I'm hurting
That years later I've never mourned
I have my family now that loves me
And I love them
But this thought is with at least once a day
Like a bad habit