Nov 2018
If you were dead when you were born. Could you have said that you were warned? But you instead, decide to stay, and soon your led through a life of pain. If I was shown the skin I claimed, is the kind thats prone to sin unaimed. I still would deem, that shell at home. The thrills, the dreams, the trails I've roamed. The ***** I thought could change her views, the more I fought, the more she *******. And with the seed, we birthed to earth, has made me see, its worth the hurt.
I had a GREAT childhood and no mental or any other kind of abuse to overcome and I never understood why I am so ******* crazy and I am without self love. No clue as to why I am automatically and habitualy self destructive.....and after a while the only theory I have come up with is the lack of oxygen at birth or the fact that my first three minutes on earth were spent with me dead and then being brought back to life......Its almost as if god and I got into a fight that morning and she let me think I won while warning me that this isn't the shell u were meant for and u will suffer and have a lot of trouble with the chemistry in the brain that will come with it.
