Every since I was a little girl maybe 5 I could hear voices not of dead people but the annoying living ones A few words here and there, at first then whispers in the evenings and finally commands criticism and ridicule One would call my name slowly and ask me to sit up straight for hours and wear itchy stockings till it was time to go to bed Another would snap at me! Avert your eyes and hide yourself in the kitchen or one of the upstairs bedrooms On Fridays one screamed at me for no apparent reason, I guess she didn't like me the next one took great pleasure in embarrassing me about my stutter and overbite The old and judgemental ones were by far the worst Shrill, soft, low, feminine, raspy and plain crazy they would come out of no where one minute I'm fine and going on with my day and very next I'm holding my head in hands and cursing I get this 7 days a week, the weekends were not for resting, socializing and fun I would have to sit in a stuffy old room every weekend decorated with books, an atlas, and cobwebs all alone while the rest played downstairs dressed up for a funeral, where no one died this has been happening to me for many long years but I long to hear my mothers voice Where are you ma?