And I close my eyes Memories run violently Horses in panic
Beating their hooves down Into charred soil from a fire Run to safe havens
My eyes open now I feel panic and wild flames And then I will run
Towards what I want most While inferno licks my heels Telling me I'm wrong
Running to defeat Repetition isn't new I always need you
Admitting to that Sends fires to burn away Killing memories
My eyes close again Thoughts and dreams of us are gone No longer bonded
And maybe that is What scares me the most here, now You're no longer here
A ghost of the past But can't haunt my sleep, my dreams Your presence is dead
I worry that I'll Forget you all together Because we are through
You are out of sight I don't have to close my eyes You are out of mind
And I am afraid Losing you all together Do I care or not?
This haiku was written in 2009, 2010 about a guy that I had broken up with. It was mutual but it hit me hard nonetheless; I was heart broken. He wouldn't speak to nor acknowledge me, therefore I felt I only had memories left. I felt so dumb for being so hung up over a guy who wanted nothing to do with me, and admitting to it was defeating. So cliche, but I'd close my eyes and see him. I didn't want to, but that's what happened nonetheless.