Unreal

Sitting here feeling bad for myself
Feels like I want to take my health
Rejected pushed back on the shelf
How can I ask someone for help
If I can’t even help myself?

Feeling like everyone will notice
Because no one really knows this
But the pain is getting focused
Guess It’s payback time I’ve owed this

It’s a token from when life
Was so simple and seemed right
Only up until the light showed me
The ******* knife-- in my hand

Is this real?

reality’s getting cloudy
Don’t want nobody around me
Don’t touch me you’ll end up drowning
This abyss of a *****
Let me go you won’t miss it
Don’t hold my hand, not a kiss

What did you say, you’re tired of this?

Me too.