I've made a mistake yesterday
Thought I was finally ready to fly...
I asked around, a circle of trust
If I should contact a guy...
I wanted his number, I felt we were cool
I thought there was a good vibe
Everyone was conflicted, no one had depicted
My next choice would break down my sky...
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I mustered up lost courage
The little bit I had left
That was entwined in a very poor light.
I pulled on my pants
The mental left strands
And I covered the shadows in my sight.
I called his job, I go there so much
I had no idea what was to come.
I told him it was I, and I had a question to ask
I felt myself starting to feel dumb.
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I alerted him then
Not to take it a weird way
And I said it was going to be awkward.
He silently listened
There was nothing I felt was different
And so I went onto a path that was harder.
I asked for his number
Not to be a bother
But just so that we could be friends
right..
He silently hurt me
Then proceeded into killing
He took it the wrong way, assumed I was flirting
Ouch...
I giggled in a worry
No, please don't mistake me
I'm just asking to be just friends
Ugh...
He silently left me
The phone left me empty
He hung up like I didn't exist...
Oof...*
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It's not his fault,
I was the one who called,
I should have taken the conflicting gut as a sign
But I had no idea,
If I didn't make an effort...
All the courage would have been for nothing...
And I've never felt bolder
I never felt as confident
I just needed to jump out my shadow.........
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But I fell right back in
I've drowned and died again
It's become much denser and even colder...