I was all high
And I didn’t even realize
I stare at the glass
My face, but not my mind
And I see the surgeon I was
Only with tears and headache this time
Everything dissolves in life
Every hint of disorder dies.
Everything breathes in contact with soil
Everything suddenly is suffused with joy
A hurtful joy, that fears its demise.
But ah, such is life. A dance with death all the way!

Today I drown, today I shake
Today the sky looks grey, and I feel in pain
Although I fear my soul knots again.
I drowned my head in the water, just in case it hurts.
(I better solve my problems with this move)
Poetry, I love him, I wish I did not sometimes!
Poetry came to me slowly, like a light.
Maybe a searchlight, because of the dark.
And the pain I could not take, poetry would do her share.
Maybe I should portray her like a lover, and make her a man.
Or do I forget?
I broke up with my boyfriend because I needed to breathe lines,
Angels whispered in my ear it was about time.
And the final answer was I needed his body against mine.
“You’ve been there before, *****, you’ll make sense of this”…

It might be gone,
but today I grab my raincoat and wait for the worst.
No rainbows, but this song.