Give it a rest William. She isn't here. Let her go. She deserves a good life, a fulfilling life. She deserves a life as beautiful as she is. Lay the memory of her to rest. Place the memory of her down at the bedrock of your soul, but do it gently. She deserves more than you. She deserves more than you could ever give. She deserves more than you could ever be. Let her go William. Set her free.