.the cracks appeared with black pigeon speaks' video: shibuya halloween 2018: western nightmare made real... listen i loved this ****, the whole internet counter-media commentary... but when you begin incorporating your competitor's styles of presentation, i.e. computing forever & paul, john.... john paul... watson... ****... john paul watson... no... paul joseph watson, yeah... it's burnout... and all these internet commentators will be the drowning men forced to cling to a razor to stop themselves from drowning... that's not a defeatist statement, like i said: i enjoyed the content... but if it has become such a tedious... self-reflection retrospection of content... sometimes i'm like... **** on me... even i don't drink in front of a mirror, and talk the: mirror, mirror on the wall, like these chaps... dunno, maybe it was a momentary clique fetish... but sure as **** it's ending; which is somewhat, a shame... oh well.

i'm sitting there, zombified for a a while,
and then...
                     SNAP OUT...
why am i watching all this internet
                commentator *******,
   esp. surrounding replying to comments
in a live-chat stream?
           what, is, wrong, with me?
nostalgia...
                       yeah... once upon a time it was
all fun...
     but fatigue has set in,
   the same commentators have become
demoralized...
                plus i haven't had enough whiskey
and i ate a meal quiet late...
   so i partly dozed off on the windowsill...
so if the content creators have become
demoralized...
    had to branch out to LGBTQ
                      erm...        FTIGMB platforms...
oh... right... Gab is down...
               so while  i snapped out of it,
i was like...
   **** it, better get onto fixing the jukebox
and reading some book and ****.