I can't help it
No matter where in my heart I may look, there you are
You may not think it but you are too good to me
Our differences mean nothing in the torrent of our similarities
We are not friends, not like most friends
There is nothing superficial about us
I can still feel you in my arms
I still remember that look of excitement on your face when we ran into each other unexpectedly
I still remember everything
The conversations, the stories, the looks
Everywhere we went, every sight we saw, every frustrated word, happy face, or sad look
I am sorry often that it wasn't enough
I am sorry that I lost you, though I am never lost to you
How can I mean so much to you when I feel so small?
A dust mite in the presence of God, a field mouse in the presence of you
Would that you were a cat, come to devour me
But no, you lift me up
So much easier it would have been
If you had only given me a reason to hate
But no, I can only love you
I can only love
I can't help but feel something missing in my life
Though God makes me whole
I miss you still, my warmth made less in your absence