you’re a peculiar thing that always comes up when the sun goes down,
the moment I feel lucky and cursed at the same time.

I love your magical spell through my body every night I cannot sleep
you knock my heart out rapidly, decide to come in peace
but instead, I become a mess.
you crashed it down just like a lego house
a building that I hardly build for years.

sometimes I wish I was a river
flooding down, following the fluctuations.
but I’m not.

with or without you, I'm still an untidy space that cannot be empty.