I'm in a beautiful cottage
I have a lump in my throat
Since I woke up and turned on my phone.

I'm trying to calm down
Easily, peacefully
Unsure of what exactly it is that I need.

Jealousy swarms throughout my body
I wonder if you feel it too
You must.

But it doesn't really matter
None of it really matters
As I read through a book
Assuring me that I must find and trust
My own validation.

I feel like I could pace around the whole place
I wish I didn't get hung up in feeling taken for granted
Or like I'm always longing
For what I don't have.

I have so much to do
I'm not sure how to attack it today
So I attempt to allow myself
To breathe
To release
To not need everything
But myself
And this moment
Right now.